Let me introduce you to Sandy, one of our Momsanity Sisters who has opened up to us all.  She's such a sweet mom (with beautiful eyes) and I know you'll adore her as much as we do!

I was honored when the coaches asked me to be the Spotlight Sister of the Month. Then moments later I was conflicted because I had no idea what I was going to say. So I decided to pray about it because that’s one thing being a part of Momsanity has reminded me, when in doubt Pray.

Like most women, life changed drastically for me when I became a mom. For well over a decade I worked multiple jobs and for the most part I did want I wanted when I wanted. Yet becoming a mom was something I dreamed about for as long as I can remember. After two heartbreaking miscarriages, my husband and I were blessed with our first child three years ago. We were blessed again with our second child nine months ago. Though I was overwhelmed with joy, I also felt lost, steering through uncharted waters.

As I settled into motherhood and with the support of the Momsanity Sisterhood, I started to allow myself to want again. What I discovered, as I dove into my interests, shocked me. My interests and desires started to feel familiar. And not like last week familiar but from long ago.

I was revisiting things I had loved in my youth.

When I was young (teen years and younger) I spent a lot of time creative writing stories and poetry. Though I have been writing for work related projects for years, it wasn’t the creative juices filling those pages.

When I introduce art to my first child, I realized what I had been missing. So I started drawing again; it was like riding a bike. It felt great to let that pencil become an extension of my artistic eye.

I loved running cross country throughout my high school years. After school, that love faded away but came back as a mom. I ran my first half marathon when my first born was 7 months old.

I sing again! Now I sound like Scuttles from The Little Mermaid but that doesn’t stop me from singing in the car, the kitchen, church and singing my babies to sleep. I am grateful that this passion came back because now my son seems to love it too.

And finally and most importantly, my faith is back and stronger than ever. My love for the Lord was strong in my youth and for one reason or another that light in me dimmed for much too long. This had weighed on my heart for a long time until I finally found my way back. I’m excited again about my love and faith and want everyone to know it. I literally feel like my heart is smiling, just like a child’s.

I guess what I am trying to tell you all is that having children didn’t change who I was, it brought me back to the original me before life made me feel like I had to change for it.

So if you are a new mom or even a mom that still feels like she has lost herself, think back, back to when you were young. What did you love? What was your passion? What made your heart smile? Go back to that. You may think it’s silly but give it a shot because I honestly believe we are our truest selves as children, before life jaded us in some way.

Let me just say, I am more than blessed to have a loving and overly supportive husband that has been there for me during this time of finding myself. This wasn’t an easy period; it was a lot of trial and error.

Thanks again to Momsanity for sparking the light that helped me figure this out. And for also, giving me a type of home that I can turn to, with other moms much like me. 

Now go let your inner child out and make your heart smile.